The definition of “heal” is to be made whole. To have the broken parts repaired; the missing parts filled. As a practicing Christian I was taught that what I lack, what is broken within, physically and spiritually, can be filled or repaired by faith. And then the break or hole is no more. “Thy faith hath made thee whole.” How much faith does one need to have in order to be healed? If you are never healed does that mean you just never had enough faith? Facing a mental illness one questions what exactly that means. In this piece I explore what it feels like to be a person of faith with a mental illness with those questions.